Delete that paragraph!
As an author I have learned many (many, many, many) things the hard way. There are a lot more painful moments than you might realize. One of the really hard things is when you have a single paragraph that takes several hours to write, because of the research and back reading and finicky things you have had to do, only to later have your editor tell you that it does not work for the book. The worst part is you probably knew it wouldn’t work for the rest of the book already, but you have put so much into it that you refuse to remove it. Instead you find you have fit the rest of the book to fit around that one paragraph that you refuse to remove.
Removing that paragraph would hurt. You have tenderly formed it. But it does not fit the story.
Our lives are like this. We have one small part that we have put a lot of effort and time into and because of that we refuse to get rid of it. It stands in the way of the rest of our lives, but we love it too much. So we form our lives around it.
Stop doing that! The paragraph you refuse to delete is misleading your story!
Now read that one more time.
It’s going to hurt. But you need to let it go. Especially if you are a Christian. You will have things in your life that do not fit your faith that will need to be removed. Sometimes it’s a habit, sometimes it can even be a job or a person. But if it’s holding you back. Certainly if it’s holding you back from God. Let it go. Delete the paragraph and start a new one. See where it takes you.
Carried in the cross 